I hope you guys are all enjoying my blog! Although I keep you all updated through my YouTube videos, I do feel my blog gives a different perspective of my life. Sometimes the videos can be a bit busy and scattered, and I feel that through my blog I am able to express deeper thoughts, since it is all written. Right now, I am at LAX airport waiting for my flight to JFK! I am super excited to go to #NYFW but I have been a bit stressed over this trip.
First off, it is New York Fashion Week, all the amazing fashionistas and important fashion industry will all be there! I am so excited to be in New York during this time, because I’ve never been! Second of all, I have a shoot that I’ve been preparing for, and that’s kind of why I have been working out like crazy, doing two-a-days at the gym with my trainer, eating super healthy (and having protein shakes), not drinking alcohol, spray tanning, getting my brows done, etc, etc. I do maintain this upkeep all the time, however, lately I feel like I’ve been doing it even more! Sometimes I feel like I am developing a complex! But, I know that I am WAYYYY happier when I feel I am at my utmost potential and doing great with fitness and health.
A few days ago, since I felt like I was really killing it with my body, I took a few photos with my friend Sienna, and also with my friend Emilio (both great photographers by the way, I’ve tagged them on my instagram). When I shot with them I began to feel nostalgic of my modeling days, and you know, I really loved doing it, being on magazines, being sexy and appearing on TV, etc. The past couple of years though, I’ve kinda transitioned into being a beauty/fashion/fitness blogger/guru and I TRULY love it so much! I feel it is more me, and I also feel that I am able to inspire more girls out there by being more “relateable,” if that makes sense, by not being so showy, because modeling seems more so like a “show-off” occupation.
Sometimes I get comments from you guys that because I live in Los Angeles, there’s a lot of pressure in being beautiful/fit/skinny, and there is, but I do feel that there is more much pressure within the modeling industry. Girls are always comparing each other, photographers and are always making comments, and you get gigs solely based on your “look.” Although I didn’t completely give up modeling I don’t do it 24/7. I am going to New York for a modeling gig, and for fashion week, and once it is out, I will tell you guys what it is! I used to model all the time, that was my main gig and my main thing, and something that I loved to do. I loved wearing bikinis and lingerie, but it’s definitely not my only purpose in my life anymore. I definitely feel I need to pass the torch to the future girls, the girls who are REALLY KILLING IT right now!
Now that I am a bit older, I do need to work out more, and eat healthier, and that’s why I have focused a lot of my blog posts and vlogs about that, and right now, I do feel that I am on the right journey to maybe be in better shape when I was at the peak of my modeling days! Anyways, this post wasn’t supposed to be depressing. Just another rant about modeling and why I am going to New York and why I’ve been going crazy with fitness! My vlog on my channel might explain more! I love you guys!